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A collection of rants, mostly about relationships and my various emotional problems
yay rants! August 14, 2005 - 21:53:11
For some reason I'm feeling a bit down and frustrated at the moment. This morning was good, as I woke up next to my lovely Sean. We had ice cream for breakfast, but didn’t get to watch Buffy like we were planning. I had to go to work, which was boring, but it’s monies. Today I wanted to finish my library books before they're due tomorrow, but I just couldn't concentrate. I decided fuck-it-all and if I really want to read them I'll get them again later. It's fine. Then while watching TV I remembered the blanket I'm sort of crocheting for Sean, and tried to do that. I didn't even get half a row done before I felt like chucking it out the window, putting it through a shredder, and burning it. I think I might have to not crochet for a while, or have several little projects going before I do something like a blanket again. For no reason I'm all grarg, and I can't think of anything to do about it. I don't want to go to bed so early, as I'll just wake up earlier tomorrow with nothing to do before I call Sean, and I don't have anything to do, or anyone to call. I sort of want to vaccuum the basement so I can do the carpet squares I forgot I said I would do weeks ago, which is probably why my room is still pink. For one reason or another, my room will not be blue this summer, but I'm sure as hell rearranging it, so I can get my stuff back up there from the basement, and start getting ready for school. I really don’t know why I have a sudden feeling of crap. Maybe I’ve had too many days of feeling good in a row. Maybe I’m not being productive enough to feel good about things. I have stuff to get done, and I’m too lazy to do it. I hope this feeling doesn’t last, as I don’t want to make other people suffer through my crankiness. This doesn’t help with something to do before I go to bed tonight though. I’m bored, and tired, and cranky. I might be glad when I go back to school and have an actual schedule, with things to do. Ooh, I should check my bank statement! Ergh, that just reminds me that the bank was supposed to call me when my checks got there, so I could go pick them up. Last Tuesday. This was ordering checks charged to the bank, because the ones I ordered never came to my house. I’m getting really annoyed at this bank. Fucking hell. So now my computer went screwy again, isn’t that great? I miss being at school and seeing people. There are many people “online” but they’re all away. My best friend is in Scotland, so I can’t even talk to him online all night. Sean’s at work, and it’s really too late to go out. I don’t like this game. EDIT: Looking at my icon makes me smile. - Kitty |
