My mind works in funny ways. :: Kitty rants :: August 13, 2005 at 16:35:52

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My mind works in funny ways. August 13, 2005 - 16:35:52

So I have evidence that my jealousy was mostly due to my feeling like crap that night. I think. At the party last night I met Sean's "biggest temptation". Two years in a row he saw her at CONvergence, and if he hadn't been dating me he would have gone after her. Ok, so this year she was already taken, but he didn't know that before he got there, when he was plotting. So When I saw her my thought again was "She's so much prettier than me!" It wasn't really a jealousy thing this time, it was more of a fiendish plotting. He finds her attractive, I find her attractive. If only there was some way we could both have sex with her! Alas, he doesn't share me, and she's already dating someone, and I have no idea whether she even likes girls (although she was being a bit flirty- that's just affection). This is all just me joking around to make an akward situation less so. I'm turning Sean's attraction to another woman into something silly that doesn't have any effect on us. Or something. I'm probably just making him uncomfortable because he doesn't know whether I'm serious or not about a threesome (of course I'm not serious, I know it's never going to happen, so I joke about it).
- Kitty

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It's funny how you two literally have the opposite attitudes about sexuality usually found in your genders.

Yeah, I was just thinking how amusing it is that he's the one that thinks, "You want someone else in our bed? Aren't I enough for you? You don't love me anymore!" and I'm the one that thinks, "More people involved means more potential for fun, if done right!" It could also be that I'm attracted to women too, and don't have an outlet for that, and a threesome would help with that. Or not, whatever. In any case I'm not so desparate that I'd risk harming things by trying to convince him or leaving him for someone that would be willing to share. This is as long as a post itself!