Calvsie King of the Calvsie post his incoherent thoughts...

normailty, defy it... January 5, 2010 - 20:00:29

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The day after my post on my goals for the year I was told to break my number 10 goal...
In hind sight it had been building to this moment for some time, and the game of hearts was the tipping point...
An attempt to avoid fighting ironically triggered his blow up, A simple brush off of "whatever"...
Then I found myself being informed I was no longer invited to ride along or stay in the hotel at the wedding we were going to last weekend, unless I meet his condition...
"BE NORMAL FOR ONCE IN YOUR F%@$ING LIFE!!!"
I was floored...
Who was he to make such demands? He will never admitted it but he is just as strange as me and yet so different...
He who wears pink shirts, is the biggest fan-boy of Kohls to ever walk the planet, and closes the window shade on me in the kitchen...
Anger welled up with in me...
For a brief moment I saw how closely we matched one another in anger...
We were brothers...

I went in spite of him to the wedding and was glad I did, but some how the whole feel of the weekend had been altered...
I live with a man who is a twisted parallel of myself, but we are two separate people and the lense through which I see the connection is easily shattered...
He chooses to filter himself, to only let the insanity out in small burst...
I have no filter or control...
I am who I am, I can not change who I am just to fit into a mold some one else feels I should conform to...
I am Robert Gregory Sieg...
I am Calvsie...
I am not normal...

- calvsie

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