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A yearly breaking point November 3, 2010 - 19:42:59

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I have reached it or at least am coming darn near close. Why this happens I am not sure, but I have a tendency to have a lot of pent up stress and exhaustion around this time every year.
It is a bout this time that I would pull one of my infamous vanishing acts where none of my friends would see my for a month or two, usually ending mid December.
For the first time in my life  though I find my self torn between vanishing and being with some one.  A desire to be with her and take her in my arms and never let go.  On the other hand I just want to curl up into a ball and pretend the world doesn't exist.
This duality is the most bizarre contradiction of being Calvsie. It may seem a strange statement but being Calvsie is not easy.
All around me are people at work and school that seem to think that the world around them requires me to be "Normal", Normality is something I strive against daily.
Being normal means giving up on being me. This is why I love Alisha, she doesn't mind and better yet agrees with me on the pursuit of insanity.
So while I may feel on the verge of breaking and giving up on this world I no longer have to search hard for the reason why I shouldn't, and cannot.

I AM CALVSIE FREAKING KING THERE OF!

- calvsie

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