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A collection of rants, mostly about relationships and my various emotional problems
Relationship update: I still have a boyfriend. October 8, 2005 - 22:23:25
Sean and I talked a lot Friday, and decided that it's better to stay together, if only because we can always break up later and if we do now there's no going back. No, I'm not staying with him for convenience or that I just want to be with someone. I love him, and he is very important to me. I guess I just forgot how much over the past couple of weeks. It’s vaguely amusing if you look at the week before we broke up before, and last week, and the things surrounding it, they’re pretty damn similar. I just don’t really have time for a boyfriend, but we’re going to work on that. We didn’t really get a chance this weekend to actually solve any problems we have, but at least communications are open now, so I might feel better talking over the phone about it. Or not, we’ll see how it goes. The reason we didn’t solve anything was because this morning, when we were going to talk some more, we pressed apples into cider for the party instead. I feel bad now about not letting him go, seeing as he did all that work, but my decision stands for now. He actually doesn’t seem so mad about it, but I don’t know. I think I’m going back home next Friday for the day, so we can watch Mirrormask, and I’ll be able to grab some stuff from my house. Today I mostly wasted time. I did work on PChem with Brian, but that was not for very long. We napped for a little over an hour, which I’m sure Sean wouldn’t appreciate, but I don’t really care. It’s just sleep, and fits in the category we’re currently disagreeing about, I’m sure. I just really like sleeping with someone else in the bed, if you can arrange it comfortably. It’s very comforting and soothing, especially if there’s a lot of stress going on. I really don't know what to tell Sean about affection between Brian and me, if anything. We tend to be affectionate like sitting cuddled on the couch when watching TV, and such, and Sean would probably kill us all. The funny thing is that Brian is Sean's favorite of all my friends here. He said this weekend, "Of all your friends, Brian is the nicest." I wonder what he would think if I told him that Brian's an affection buddy. *shrugs* Tomorrow we’re going to the apple orchard, so that’ll be fun. Baby apples! Awww so cute! I think I had more to say, but I don’t remember it, and it’s probably the sort of thing I’d private post anyway. Whatever. - Kitty
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