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A collection of rants, mostly about relationships and my various emotional problems
Least complicated my ASS! June 4, 2005 - 19:29:56
I feel a bit depressed. Today I went to my new job to fill out paperwork, and I start tomorrow. Sean came over, helped me wash the walls a bit, and then we talked. I fucking hate that I cause him pain. I want to be with him so much, I can barely think. It's hard to figure everything out, with my feelings for him, and then the complications with Emery. It probably wouldn't be a good idea to go back to Sean without experiencing other things for a while, but I'm nowhere near ready to date anyone else, and won't be for some time. I want Sean in my life somehow, but I don't know if we can be just friends. Whenever I'm with him every part of my screams to just go to him, to kiss him and be in his arms. The only thing that's keeping me back is that I know somewhere in my head is a reason not to, but I can't remember. I hate emotions, especially love and jealousy. - Kitty |
