a strange sort of community
Notable Exception January 20, 2010 - 22:20:39
So, as one of Trae's "notable exceptions" I thought I should comment, but then it got really long so I decided to post about it.

Most of my regular readers (I would say just Trae, but almost every time i do somebody new comments. Weird.) know that i don't use Twitter or Facebook or any blogging service other than this. There's two reasons behind this. On my 2006 Deployment, there were 3 internet accessible computers i could use on the ship. Most of the time, these were used by my stupid dick shipmates for myspace. The internet connection available to lower enlisted guys was less than a 28.8. (Yes, the higher your rank, the more bandwidth you got. I'm not kidding.) Most myspace pages take about half a hour to load at the speed we had, so if you saw that all three computers were being used for myspace, you might as well just give up. I didn't want to be one of those assholes, so i didn't do myspace. Since i didn't do myspace, i didn't follow the migration to Facebook, and i thought twitter was dumb. 140 characters? I waited 15 minutes to post 140 characters? F*ck that. And I had some theory that i don't clearly remember about social networking being the downfall of civilization.

It may come as a surprise to people that personally know me, but i get really bad social anxiety attacks. In person, it's no big deal. I just stop talking, don't make eye contact, etc. When I'm by myself, i really do start to lose it. If i can't use body language, tone of voice, things like that to determine how people are responding to me, I don't know how to continue. And i know, internet anonymity should override that, but i can't.

I recently have started having a desire to become a facebook user, mostly to reconnect with old friends. I've also recently desired to lose weight, have sex, get a girlfriend, take meaningful college courses, assault my roommate, burn this mother down and go to Vancouver (not specifically in that order), so it's pretty obvious that desire doesn't translate to action. I'm pretty sure i'll start up soon, but seeing as how i hardly ever update here, I'm not sure how much use i;d get out of it.

Oh, also F*ck Mike Tyson.

- Winchester
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The subject line... my only weakness. How could you know?! November 15, 2009 - 20:50:08
Sorry to disappoint, but this is far less drunk, angry and threatening than my last post.

No news, really. No news is good news, which either means not having news is good or there is no such thing as good news. I was never sure.

Okay, so while google usually solves this shit for me, it can't tell me this one.  My friend Pelzl introduced me to a buddy of his whose name i can't remember but he was a musician and one of his songs contained the lyric, "If you can't stand on your hands, i cannot be your man."  Thats all I remember about it except the melody which surprisingly doesn't sound the same once I type it out.

Anyway, its November now, which means Thanksgiving, which means my first thanksgiving in four years.  With no disrespect to any of my CS buddies, dry turkey and mashed potatoes from a metal trough is not a thanksgiving dinner.

Okay, so it might be more that I'm home and with my extended family for this year. It's about twenty people or so that i have no relation to other than my parents have known them for longer than my life.  And they're all related to each other.  And they totally adopted my family long before it was my family.  I'm really looking forward to it.

One last thought before i go: Isn't Pokemon just science fiction dog fighting?

- Winchester
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Why I suck at the internet. October 27, 2009 - 23:49:44
Okay, so I'm gonna write this one pretending that i have more readers than just Eric.

I really do suffer from Jay and Silent Bob syndrome; I can't separate what people say about fictional personas from real life people.  Mostly I think this comes from the fact that I am the same on the internet as i am in person.

That said, I want to kick the absolute shit out of Fr*t*r D*nt*l**n.  (Edited because I don't need a flame war.)

I know that should this be found I'll be immediately accused of being another alias of Trae.  I can only prove that I'm not Trae by telling people I'm not Trae, or actually meeting people.  This is why i suck at the internet.  The anonymity that it provides is great for looking at porn and slandering, but it leads to scamming, slander, theft, and all sorts of other problems.

Now, I guess the main problem here is that I have the mindset of a sailor.  I want to prove that my friends and I are better people than the ones who choose to slander us.  Unfortunately, to prove this my instinct is to fight the naysayers and that just doesn't work on the internet.

This is a guy that has never said a word against me, who honestly doesn't know me and also is a sonofabitch that deserves to have his teeth kicked down his throat until he understands that ripping people off and defaming the ones that point out your scam isn't good business.

But at the same time, according to his own websites, he's 49.  If i get to be 55 like I'm sure he's lying not to be, I really hope I can support myself by sitting on my fat ass at home and telling people that I'm casting spells on their behalf.

I guess all I can say is, stay the fuck away from my friends cause I'll punch you in the goddamn throat if I ever find you.  Also, the government gives me a shit ton of money every month and plane tickets aren't out of my price range.  Anywhere, anytime fucker. I'm willing to bet that my fists are a lot stronger than your fake spells.

Fuck you and leave my friends alone, you fucking douche.

- Winchester
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They say three percent of people use five to six percent of their brain. October 11, 2009 - 22:47:36
So, the usual nothing has been my life lately.  Really, I haven't done shit, and kinda have been blowing off some shit i should do, like my criminology class that i fucking hate.  It's one of those that you think will be totally cool, but ends up being a fucking statistics class.


So I'm listening to "Statistician's Blues" by Todd Snider.  I recently discovered that i forgot about him after discovering him about 11 years ago.  A single line of one of his songs popped in my head this week so i googled it and then iTunesed it from my iPhone.  Send that sentence back in time 11 years and see if it makes any sense.

Also, I'd like to take a moment to address the fact that certain people have been critical of my post- posting editing. Actually, i really don't have much to say about that except it was a non-traditional spelling and my brain works verbally, not the other thing. For example, I hear my own voice in my head when I think.  Unless I'm drunk, in which case everyone around me hears my voice when I think.

Alright, when something happens or i feel like writing more i will. Wait, now i get blogging.

- Winchester
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Week! October 1, 2009 - 22:18:47
So this now is my first full month of college.  Interesting, yet fun.  Also, I swear i was never as young as some of those fucking kids.

Overheard two great things this week. First, Monday i was in the Union coffeeshop and heard "Drew only apologizes once a year and that's how i know it's Yom Kippur" has to be the funniest thing i've ever heard on the subject of jewish holidays.

Today I walked past the daily religious/moral debate on campus and someone yells "I don't believe in homosexuality!" which was immidiately responded to with "No bro, that shit happens."

I wanted to blog in class last week.  I was gonna make the subject "I may be blogging in class, but that guy is playing online poker." But after i came up with the subject, i realized i had nothing else to write. Super exciting life here.

Anyway, I guess I'll catch you later Trae, since I'm pretty sure you're my only reader. Oh, and maybe Crysta. Hi Crysta!

- Winchester
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This is why i probably shouldn't be on the bus. September 21, 2009 - 15:48:16
So I was in a bar with my friend Daniel and a bunch of guys from the ship.  He walks up to me and says "Hey you want another drink?" and of course i say sure. Daniel instantly turns around and yells "twenty jaeger bombs!" at the bartender.

So when i started thinking about this on the bus today, and then started laughing. Out loud. I got a few stares for that.

The story about the bar is actually really funny, but it needs a lot of context to go with it, and i learned that if you have to explain why something is funny then it isn't funny.

- Winchester
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First Day of School! September 2, 2009 - 15:23:21
I have been waiting for this day for four years, nine if you count the years i didn't know i was waiting for today. It wasn't super exciting and truth be told i was on the bus longer than i was in class, but it was still college.

Also, i saw a three legged dog. Not that unusual, but it was the second one I saw in about two weeks.

okay, out of news.

- Winchester
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What do you mean i haven't updated in two years? August 23, 2009 - 23:53:36
Fair enough, people that outranked me (when i had rank) told me not to blog. My excuse for the last eight months of inactivity is that nobody cares enough about nameless people that are completely unstable to read about me dealing with them.

Congrats to Crysta and Eric. Lumberjacks need love too.

Seriously, It makes more sense than... something that makes a lot of sense. Fuck off, I'm not that great at this.  But I will tell you that i have very rarely seen two people that seem to work on the same levels that those two do.

In personal news, I'm single and a little lonely.  Thank god college starts Sept. 2nd.

Had an awful roommate eperience this year, but don't feel the need to go into it.  Vilifying him will only lead to his rebuttal, but i do want to say that if you weren't fucking involved, and are only the sister of those involved, watch what you say on facebook.

I think thats all for now. I wanted a long post, but those just turn into bitching.

More to follow.

- Winchester
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I know it's been a while... June 19, 2007 - 20:02:34
and this is still going to be very brief. for reasons i'm not going into, this isn't a comfortable spot to relax, post, and vent anymore, but i can use it for things like:

I'll be home july 12th thru july 19th. yes, my birthday is july 13th. there might be a party, but i doubt it.

later, maybe.

- Winchester
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