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What the hell am I doing here?
What the hell am I doing here?
Well, this sucks. July 27, 2006 - 6:23:14
When I get sick, I tend to let things go until I can't stand it anymore, and then I give up and head to the campus health center because I'm poor and can't actually afford a real doctor.

Yesterday, my "cold" finally got bad enough (fever of 101, constant headache, sore throat, trouble sleeping because of the pain, etc) that I went to the doctor, got some bloodwork done, and lo and behold...I have mono, and strep throat.

I suppose it's no surprise--both of my roomates had mono during the time we lived together, and the virus can stay with you for up to six months before showing any signs. But seriously, this blows. Mono AND strep! I was supposed to have the rest of this week off anyway, due to some network crap at work, but I was hoping I wouldn't have to spend it in bed, being sicker than anything. And now I can't go to my family reunion camping thing, because I'd end up getting all my little cousins sick, and I'd have to spend most of my time alone in a tent, or sitting away from everyone else around the fire. :(

The doctor gave me a metric assload of drugs to keep me somewhat pain-free (hooray for Vicodin knockoffs so I can sleep!) and to knock out the strep. But unfortunately, one of the side effects of the antibiotics is insomnia, so here I am, posting at 5:30 in the morning, because I can't get back to sleep. So much for that whole 'resting' thing.

- Lizzy
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Wasting time... July 13, 2006 - 9:36:10
Campus wireless networks are a wonderful thing.

So here I am, up at least three hours earlier than normal (that was hell--I came thiiis close to rolling back over and falling asleep again when the alarm went off) and staring blankly at the computer screen with nothing to do, now that I have an hour wait for a twice re-scheduled doctor's appointment. CNN is no use--the attacks in Israel last night are unsettling to hear about, and as important as the situation is in the world right now, I find myself wanting to not care for at least another hour or so.

So I really have nothing to talk about, other than the fact that I've been watching a great deal of Doctor Who lately, and it's seriously affecting my subconscious. But I love it anyway, and staring at my Tenth Doctor and Rose wallpaper on the laptop certainly doesn't make matters any worse.

Dad's pushing me to get a new job, and I'm seriously contemplating it--I could easily drop my filler natural science course in August and pick up a better, well-paying job to help me pay off my credit card and start saving up for yet another appartment. Just another level of stress I'm dealing with, and it still blows my mind how much has changed in six months: I broke up with Drew, moved out of the appartment, changed majors, bought a laptop, and put in my notice at the library for the end of summer--and that was just in the first few weeks.  The stress is starting to get to me, though, but thankfully I'm finding ways to lessen it and just enjoy my summer, rather than worrying over things that I cannot control.

I shouldn't be thinking about my life at 8:30 in the morning after only four hours of sleep, but that's what I'm doing, all reason and logic be damned.

...I should really get a dog, or a bird, or something. No more fish, though. That was just bad.

- Lizzy
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So this is what adulthood is like July 4, 2006 - 19:41:19

Every time I go visit my mom's side of the family, it seems like I've always just missed something big.

The little girl is my cousin Abby, who will very shortly be two years old. I remember when I could hold her in one arm, and now she's walking and talking, and I feel so very, very old compared to her. What's even worse is that my younger cousins are starting to accidentally call me Auntie Lizzy on occasion, which makes me wonder just how bad that age gap is going to be in 10 years, when they're just getting into high school and I'm suddenly an 'old lady'.

My family has started to treat me differently as well--suddenly, I'm an adult and it's a huge change. Family gossip is spoken in my presence, people care about my plans after graduation, and they're starting to jibe about me settling down with a family. It's not that I mind so much, it's just a change from Before, when I was still a kid to everyone and treated as such.

There's some line that I crossed between Christmas and now, and I feel so much older than I should, because really, I'm not that old. My mother cringes every time I say that I feel old, because it makes her feel older as well, but I am starting to feel my age. I look back at high school and wonder why I was so wrapped up in things that really didn't actually matter--I find myself caring less and less what anyone else thinks of me, and more and more about what I'm going to do with my life now that I have the opportunity. The other night, I realized that in two years, I'll have graduated from college, and be starting my master's degree, and it's scary as hell, because it all seemed so far away before, but now I'm thinking about college loans and where I'm going to live, and getting a new job, and all of these grown-up things that part of me just wants to go away, so I can crawl into bed and watch cartoons on a Saturday morning. Even parts of my life that already seemed grown up are changing, making me wonder just where I'm going and what I'm doing.

Getting older isn't a bad thing, really, but it does take some getting used to.

- Lizzy
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Never is a promise July 1, 2006 - 0:20:43

That couldn't have possibly gone any worse.

And I couldn't possibly be any more cryptic!

- Lizzy
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Oh, screw you MLK June 22, 2006 - 11:43:02
I am so, so glad that my history class is finally over. Thank you, Professor Political Asshat, for putting a question about the Civil Rights movement on the final after you glossed over the entire thing during class. :D WAY COOL.

I still think I did okay, though. Should pull a solid B in the class, and an A in my L&I Sci final next week, which I forgot about until the professor emailed us. Silly online classes.

Apparently, there is a Serenity showing tonight for charity out in Franklin. I may have to check it out.

- Lizzy
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Well aren't I special? June 19, 2006 - 18:30:43
Hoo boy. As if a livejournal wasn't enough, I get the crazy idea to start writing here. You'd think, after blogging for the last five years, I'd have some idea what to write here, but I really don't.

Let's see, how about an introduction? I'm Liz (or Lizzy, depending on where you know me from) and I'll be turning 21 in the fall. I'm currently, after bouncing around a bit, studying library and information science at the University of Wisconsin Milwaukee, and have only recently moved back in with my parents because I'm poor as hell. I work at the UWM library (as of now, at least) and spend most of my days playing cute Korean MMORPGs in class, working, and avoiding my parents whenever possible. I know Trae from NoBrand, as Sam and Kellin dragged my sorry ass to Eau Claire to keep me cheery after my no-good rotten scumbag of an ex dumped me without warning.

...No, I'm not bitter. Honestly, I'm not. I just enjoy mocking him whenever possible--after a year of being treated like shit, I deserve to get a bit of my own back. But that's a really long story that I won't get into here. Needless to say, I'm single, and for the most part, I'm enjoying it. The lack of someone you can always talk to kind of gets old after a while, though. As do the creepy guys hitting on me at cons. (Note to self: Next Acen, I'm wearing a burka)

It should be telling enough about just how dull my life is right now, that the fact that I got a rebate check in the mail from Dell was the highlight of my day so far.

Yeah, I really need to do something about that. I suppose I have a social life somewhere, but I can't find it right now. It's probably packed away with the rest of my things in the boxes that currently fill my room, waiting for me to unpack one of these days.

I should probably get started on that.

- Lizzy
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