Langland's Awesome Thoughts(Extended)

Am I trying to Too Hard or Am I just not Trying at All April 17, 2013 - 14:03:12

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Ok so most of you know, well those of you that I want to know, that I had a Test session with 3M. Most of us should know what 3M is. I think we all have used their products. I have used their extended tape products and post it notes. And when I worked for Shell Lake Woodcrafters, I used their sand sponges they made in the UK.

Well this test session was something I though I was fail. Turns out I passed it and now my test is permanently on record with 3M. So now that I passed that's Awesome. I now had an interview on Monday April 15. Well it was an interesting interview. I'm not use to have 3 people on 1 person(me) ask me questions. It was also interesting that one of those guys is named Paul. Yes it was said at this time "Paul meet Paul. Oh this kind of awkward." Imagine some laughter too because it happened.

I think I answered the questions right, I didn't really have any questions to ask. My long term goal if I work with them is too relocate to the Eau Claire location someday. That's if all goes well. I have my doubts since I suck at interviews but I also feel a little hope too.

So anyways I sent them a thank you letter today for the interview. I thanked them for the test session too. In fact the nice lady Michelle at the Alley Cats Coffee shop even gave me a free stamp because she's been encouraging me and praying for me for this.

I can't help but wonder though, am I just trying to hard or am I just not trying at all. I wonder about this all the time. I wonder if I have tried to hard and end up failing. I wonder if that's why I lost my job at Woodcrafters because I tried to hard not to make mistakes that I was just making mistakes anyway and that I was trying to hide something about myself I didn't want people to know(my mild autism or aspergers syndrome). I also wondered if I tried to earn the respect from everyone that I fail to realize not everyone will like me. I also wonder if I just don't try hard enough to where it counts.

Anyways hopefully I take the right steps to get a job at 3M and maybe someday move to Eau Claire and still work for them.

Other than that I guess I'm trying to bounce back from the last 2 years where I have had much pain. And also there maybe a relationship on the horizon. My coworker has this friend that moved from Colorado and her relationship with a guy ,whose like 13 years older than her, if kind of falling apart because this guy treats her like shit. Litterally because she wants a kid and he doesn't. I should know better being a rebound once but somehow I feel I could treat her so much better. If it doesn't work out then oh well. I need to go out and live my life. I feel I have been stuck in this funk for too long and it's time to finally get out and about and actually live a better life than I already am. I definitely got to get out this northwoods. Oh well that's another story.
- Langland

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