Last night was the last night I will spend in this apartment. This is the last morning I'll spend in this building calling it home. Hell, this is the last morning I'll spend in this city calling it home. This is the last time I will write a blog entry or any other kind of article half perched over the side of my couch in this living room. While a new beginning is here, it is also an end to a good chunk of my life.
I moved to Eau Claire in the fall of 1999 when I started school at UW Eau Claire. With the exception of the occasional summer spent in Milwaukee, I've pretty much lived in this city for over the last decade. I've tried to leave it several times in that interim, but something or another would come up and I would stay.
This time it's for real though.
There is so much about moving on and letting go storming through my head right now, and I'm not really sure how I can really explain a lot of it. While I'm excited for the new horizon that lays ahead, my heart is heavy to abandon what I have spent so long accustomed to.
But that's life I guess.
No matter how much we don't want to, there are times when its best just to move on. There are times when the right thing is to face that open road and embrace what's out there. There are times when we must be willing to let go of the past to embrace our futures. And in truth, my personal future isn't looking all that bad.
I've spent the last two years in this specific apartment, and it's very hard to let go of it. Part of me genuinely doesn't believe it's not where I'm going to be sleeping next week, let alone tonight.
It's a long drive to Indiana, and its a lot of change. But we must embrace the change if we are to grow as people. If we resisted it, we would stagnate. I've never subscribed to the faith (and truthfully first heard this quoted elsewhere), but I'm reminded of this particular bit from Corinthians:
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
Our hearts want to hold onto the partial views and clouded visions given to us by being comfortable where we are. But for me, it's time to grow, time to move on, and time to shed these trappings of comfort for a new beginning. It's time to open my eyes to something bigger and continue on in my personal journey. I hope you're willing to come with me.
Or at least listen to me rant about Indiana instead of Wisconsin.
you never cease to amaze me Trae, that is a beautiful passage of scripture. It's strange that while I believe you consider me a nuisance more than anything, I will genuinely miss having you around here. Well I guess its time to say goodbye