Most of my regular readers (I would say just Trae, but almost every time i do somebody new comments. Weird.) know that i don't use Twitter or Facebook or any blogging service other than this. There's two reasons behind this. On my 2006 Deployment, there were 3 internet accessible computers i could use on the ship. Most of the time, these were used by my stupid dick shipmates for myspace. The internet connection available to lower enlisted guys was less than a 28.8. (Yes, the higher your rank, the more bandwidth you got. I'm not kidding.) Most myspace pages take about half a hour to load at the speed we had, so if you saw that all three computers were being used for myspace, you might as well just give up. I didn't want to be one of those assholes, so i didn't do myspace. Since i didn't do myspace, i didn't follow the migration to Facebook, and i thought twitter was dumb. 140 characters? I waited 15 minutes to post 140 characters? F*ck that. And I had some theory that i don't clearly remember about social networking being the downfall of civilization.

It may come as a surprise to people that personally know me, but i get really bad social anxiety attacks. In person, it's no big deal. I just stop talking, don't make eye contact, etc. When I'm by myself, i really do start to lose it. If i can't use body language, tone of voice, things like that to determine how people are responding to me, I don't know how to continue. And i know, internet anonymity should override that, but i can't.

I recently have started having a desire to become a facebook user, mostly to reconnect with old friends. I've also recently desired to lose weight, have sex, get a girlfriend, take meaningful college courses, assault my roommate, burn this mother down and go to Vancouver (not specifically in that order), so it's pretty obvious that desire doesn't translate to action. I'm pretty sure i'll start up soon, but seeing as how i hardly ever update here, I'm not sure how much use i;d get out of it.

Oh, also F*ck Mike Tyson.