So on Monday Crysta and I exchanged our presents with each other. It was Yule, and it seemed like the most appropriate time to do it as we'll be in Milwaukee on Christmas. I got her the standard fare, attempting to get her things she's mentioned she's wanted but never asked for, while Crysta... Crysta gave me sunshine.
I'm fairly certain you're confused right now.
The literal gift she gave me was a couple of Sun Jars from ThinkGeek. But in this time of darkness, which can affect me fairly severely, something this simple (that I've wanted for years but could never justify spending the money on) is kind of a big deal to me.
I don't think people know how big of a deal being without sun in my week is. And I've been living like this since November, which means for the last two months or so I've been existing in a state of darkness more or less. I know it's cliche, and they even have a stupid acronym to describe what I'm feeling, but it more or less makes a gift so simple a rather moving experience for me.
I try my best to be Mr. Happy-Go-Lucky on the internet, and most days I actually am a happy person -- but this time of year wears on me like nothing else. Yule means more to me than bright lights, family, and giving gifts. It also means that the days are going to get longer from here on out, and that there's still some hope left in the darkened skies I see every day leaving work.
Wow, that sounded exceptionally emo. Next thing you know I'll be painting my fingernails black.
I probably won't have an update for the internet on Friday this week, as it will be Christmas. I expect that rather than writing a blog entry this early in the morning, I'll be busy... oh hell, I'll probably still be asleep. But once I do wake up, I'll be spending the time with my family rather than typing a 300-500 word essay about the meaning of cheese or whatever the hell I find time to write about these days.
Okay, I think I've meandered a bit here.
To sum things up, Crysta is aweseome, Darkness sucks, and I'll be busy on Christmas. That seems to make some sense.