Moving On. :: The Life of the Traegorn :: April 13, 2009 at 13:10:04

Moving On.
Posted Apr 13, 2009 - 13:10:04	Tweet

There are times in life when you need to move on from some people. There are times you need to burn a bridge. In this case though, I only lit the match. The other person covered the bridge in gasoline.

You're probably a little confused.

So when I started typing an entry today I originally had planned something nice about the warmer weather and how things were going great. All in all, it was going to be a positive post. Sadly though, I had business to attend to today and I ended up having to make a certain phone call. This was a phone call I'd been dreading for the last several days... a phone call with someone who had been my friend for 15 years, and I had called brother at one point.

This is a sentiment neither one of us is sharing at the moment.

I could go into deeper details and talk about who did what to who, but that's unimportant. But as I still feel justified in what I said and did, I can't help but feel the loss of what I've just ended. It's for the best though. I'm done enabling. I'm done dealing with his sense of entitlement. I'm done being someone's occasional boogey-man. I'm honestly, more than anything else, done with dealing with that batshit insane family.

Pardon my language.

It's sad, but it had to be done. I was significantly ruder in my phone call than I had intended to be, but such is life. I also sort of hung up on him... but trust me when I say there was no way the call could have gotten worse anyways. I mean, I was shaking with adrenaline by the end of the call, and hanging up was the only intelligent course of action.

I called my good friend Chris afterward and talked about the whole thing for about an hour or two. While I feel bad, I also feel like a weight has been lifted from my life. I cut a cord that has needed cutting for quite a long, long time.

It's bizarre really though, I mean this is a man who called me a brother but I took one action (to his face no less) and he'll likely never talk to me again. Was it a nice thing to do? No. Was it needed? Yes. Was it justified? Yes. But he'll never understand that. Even now, I still have a feeling of loyalty to him to some degree, but I know for a fact that he doesn't feel the same way about me or anyone else he's cut out. He showed me over a month ago how little my friendship to him meant though, so that's how things go.

I apologize for the drama.

I'll be more happy-fun next time.
- Traegorn